I'm home again

I'm very sorry for not posting at all for a month. It'll be extremely hard to bring you all up on what has gone on.

Well I think I'll just back track

Today I had a chem quiz and final. 2 of my classes were cancelled. Have I mentioned what classes I have this term?

MWF: 8:30-9:45am: LSFY-Mind,Soul,Self. Basically a philosophy class? We've been talking about Plato the past 3 weeks, just got into Montaigne. It's fairly interesting. I don't think i could ever take a bunch of classes on it. Way to much to grasp!

10:25-11:15: Modern Dance

11:30-12:45: Chemistry 122-ew

1:00-2:15pm: Pre-calc-ewewe

T: Precalc- only 50 minutes!

Th: chem lab 1:30-4:15...just let me die

I like my classes so far.

Last week we had an Ice Day due to an Ice Storm. We went sledding on stolen lunch trays. Oh, this past weekend I got really trashed. Look on facebook for videos. I'm everyones favorite drunk now. I insist on making snow angels. It took 45 minutes for a 15 minute walk. AND I called the sky "upstairs". Wish you were there?

Boy update: Been hanging out with Brian a little. I couldn't decide whether I see him as a friend or more than one...but I think he's more than a friend...I dunno. I'll hang out with him over break. The only problem is that we never really talk. It's always quoting something or goofing around. Hopefully that'll change. Adam and I have been hanging out as usual. He is like another brother. We wail on each other-like full out punch. He's been trying to teach me sel defense...I guess I need more muscle.

I watched a movie called Requiem for a Dream. SO SAD. The diet pills creeped me out the most.

What else...OH I'll be in Michigan till the 31st. With limited internet access. Hopefully I'll be able to drive into town and go to the wireless coffee shop. After the 31st I'll be home again till the 6th.

I have to get up at 6 tomorrow so i should probably go!

Where are we?What the hell is going on?

I don't know how to start this or how to explain anything thats been happening.

So Brian and I have been texting all break. Especially after I saw him. The past three days have been more than that. He called me on wednesday night. We talked for 38 minutes. Then he called me on thursday. We talked for 42 minutes. And he called me today after he was done with his swim meet. He told me he was bummed out but he feels better now that he's heard my bight and cheery voice.

And when I went to work it didn't stop. Here's the conversation we had. Imogen style of course.

B:My god this can't be happening
A:What the hell is going on?
B:You don't care a bit, no you don't care a bit
A:there there baby, it's just textbook stuff, it's in the abc's of growing up
B:frame by frame, red speed ahead. A city dissolving, the thread of our love in the headlights. It is safe now, will your arms be open?
A:Why d'ya have to be so cute?It's impossible to ignore you. Must you make me laugh so much?It's bad enough we get along so well.

but then I got home from work and found tis on my facebook:

You find your way back down.
And I'll keep the area clear...please clear the area.
When you find your way back down...in one piece.
Then I'll just be waiting here...right here.

ahhh I'm fuzzy.

uuuugggggggghhhhhh

Possibly had one of the best days ever yesterday.

Had thanksgiving at friend Megan's house even though it's like 2 days after thanksgiving.
Then went to MY house and friends munched while watching old videos that we made together along with Dance Team mess-ups.

Off to friend Annie's house! No parents home for the ENTIRE week. Anyways she immediatly pulls out a handle of captain morgan rum and all of us take shots. I had 3 and then made myself a rum and coke to look more respectable. Friends of best friends came over so they could get their pot fix. Of course I had nothing to do with it. Went inside from the freezing cold-which didn't bother me because I had my LIQUOR BLANKET! Don't you love liqour blankets?I do!
After that random things happend. 2 of best friends made out- a lot. They're both girls. I think I just sat myself on the couch and watched Pirates. OH WAIT! No I decided to stick lollipops through a banana resulting in a canoe looking sculpture. Great to find the next morning. I also thought the cops were coming because one of best friends would not comply with her mom. So me being paranoid and all went and put all my stuff in one stop incase the cops did come. Then i could just shoot up the stairs with it and go hide somewhere. It get's a little fuzzy after that.

Next morning I wake up at 9 am. An hour earlier than I normally do. No hangover at all-just lingering tipsyness still. I was quite proud that my glass of water helped me not to get a hangover. Also proud that I have an idea of how much I can drink. Thank god for shot glasses. I'm pretty sure 3 shots are my limit. My roomate did 8 in a half hour...but then she went to the hospital. Regardless...8?! So best friend insist we go to taco bell. No car. Walk to Ace Hardware and find a car drove through the window of the store! Best friend Annie's brother was working at the register. If it had gone any further in the store he would have been hit! I took pictures with my phone. I don't know how to put them on the computer though.

After Ace we went to Great Harvest Bread shop. Had our free slice of carbs-muchly needed. Best Friend Tina noticed how large their butter stick was and pointed it out to the employee. Employee then replies..OH!Yeah because it's unsalted!...because that has everything to do with how large a stick of butter is. haha.

Then to starbucks! Mmmmm tea. Needed that. I became overly paranoid that people were looking at me in evil ways. Trotted off to taco bell. Got my cheesy Fiesta Potatoes. Alas!More Carbs! Cheesy potatoes too! Just like after my stay at Knox college. It's a habit now. BAD!

Now I'm home. Still just weird feeling. No headache! Much water for me! i must find my ferret. I want more potatoes. i need to take a shower but I just don't feel like standing so I was going to take a bath but ugh baaaatthhh? I feel like I'm just sitting in filthy water.

wawawawawa

Reread last post

so many errors. I dont feel like fixing them. SHUSH!

I'm going to my friend's house today for a thanksgiving lunch/dinner! I'm so excited. It will be my friends parents, her sister, her sister's friend, my friend megan(who lives there), Annie, Cailtin, and Tina. Megans....boy is coming...we don't know what they are. Tina hates Megan's boy-who is Brent. It should be interesting. I'm just so excited to have a big dinner with friends! My thanksgiving was just with my grandpa and his love interest. I want a HUGE family gathering again. Like it was when my parents weren't divorced.

After that I'm sure we'll hang out for awhile. And then ELF is on tonight! Only one of the BEST christmas movies! I'm so excited for christmas. I love Christmas.

And then this coming week I'm going to meet up with people from my school at a mall about 45 minutes from my house. Then I will get to see Adam! Bah must go!

So I think it was...a date?

Well first I got lost going to his house, which led to my new nickname "Columbus".

So I found his house after he stood outside and flagged me down in the dark. I pulled in and we went inside. He introduced me to his parents-his two dogs. And then we left!

Got in his car and headed downtown Glen Ellyn. Get out of car and see a ton of people in the street. Their christmas tree is small...really small..so I complained about it. Went into a few stores(thrift store) where Brian asked the old ladies for UGG boots and a wind pocket watch...they only had battery...he was not satisfied.

So then we're walking andhe goes ok...so I told a friend I would meet her down hee even though I didn't want to. She texted me this morning and I was like yeah just come swing by. And some ho it came out that it was his ex-girlfriend. The ex who cheated on him and kept all the augie apparel (which cost A LOT) he sent to her on her birthday. SO we met her at starbucks...and it was awkward but in a good way because he HATES her. Then thisother girl who he semi-hooked up with a few wweekends ago came over...she's the chief sherrifs daughter. We went to a few more stores with them and then Brian' ex just said "I'm just gonna...just gonna go. I'm just gonna you know..." It was the most awkward goodbye I have ever heard. The 3 of us made fun of it a lot the whole night.

We then went to the library where there was this choir thing that his friendis in. we sat there for like an hour. Durning the time, Brians grow up friend "Byron" who is the dad of a kid he knows was like "Hey Brian, is this your date?" haha, could I have not asked for a more clarifying moment? Well he just smiled and shoot his head and said "Now why did you have to go and embarrass me like that!" Oh Byron.

After that we met up with a few more friends of his at portillos where he offered to buy me something, but I wasn't hungry at 10 o'clock so I said no. We hung out at portillos till one of his friends got a little crazy with the chocolatte cake. Then his friend drove us back to Brian's car.

Then we went back to his houseAnd I had to be home by 12, thanks Laura, and he pulled in the driveway and parked the car. Some Stynx song came on and it was stupid and I was just thinking "If he expects me to kiss him or make out to this music he's got to be joking.." But we didn't. I made it clear that I thought it was DUMB.

So he walked me to my car and opened my unlocked(not purposefully) door . I found my keys and insisted on a hug. So we hugged, a very long hug, a long squeezy hug. It was nice.And then I got in the car and he attempted to yank off my UGG boot...it's a ritual.And then I drove off and got lost again.

So that was my night...

Turkey Day

Thanksgiving...nothing exciting...I decorated...that's it.

So tomorrow...
I'm going to Glen Ellyn, IL to see a kid from my school-Brian. We're going to dinner at some pizza place...then a christmas walk thing that his town has...and then a movie. I'm going there around 5 and then i'll probably get home a little before 1.
For some reason I'm worried that it's a more than a friend thing or like..ugh.
See I would like him maybe more than a friend, but he's slept with a couple girls at school...and I dont do that.
But a lot of people do that in between relationships right? Maybe? I dont know. It's probably just a friend hanging out thing and I'm freaking out over nothing. I thought he liked this other girl. I'm pretty sure he does.
I'll know at dinner wont I. If he pays. Then I'll know. What if the waiter only brings one check. UGH ok-we're haning out. friends. just have fun. you're just friends. you don't even like him like that...that much. Just stop thinking about it!

Hairspray the movie came out a coule days ago. I've watched it ike 6 times. I LOVE IT SOOOO MUCH! I want to watch it again...but it's time for bed. I have to stretch.

I want my care package.

YES I'M A BRAT

11:42

He still hasn't called. My excitement meter has just dropped two levels.
whatev.

Brian called me today just to say hey. He told me about his night last night which involved getting really drunk and then a huge piece of wood falling on his head and then he was bleeding like crazy of course and then he had to stay up all night in case he had a concussion so he wouldn't go into a coma. haha. He's nice.

Uhm yeah...giant fangs

I'm watching the ending of Hannibal-never seen he movie- and theres these warthogish things eating a person. I didn't think they were carniverous but they've got giant fangs and so I guess they need those for something.

Adam called me yesterday. Too bad I was getting my hair dyed black so our conversation consisted of...
"Hey!"-me
"hey!what's up?"-Adam
"Oh I'm getting my hair dyed!"
"oh yeah what color?"
"black but don't worry..."
"black?what your not dying it pink?"
"pink?why would I do that, thats stupid! Can I call you back later?"
"haha yeah sure"...

So i called him back-no answer. Waited an hour, he picks up "can I call you back?"
Then i'm at my friends and I text him. He responds "nice, hey sorry I didn't call you back we were at the competition when you called and then we went out to dinner and I just got back. i'll call you tomorrow though."

It's tomorrow and it's 4:16 pm and he hasn't called. But it's still pretty early, especially for us night hawks.

Haha hello agent starling. I always wanted to watch you eat.
I feel like a never ending sentence...well that wouldn't make sence...an obnoxiously long sentence.

The leaves fall onto the shattered pavement that coats the old statues crevaces indented from the frequent blows of sandpapered fingers running down the chalk covered sidewalks of eternal darkness caused by the extending arm of the lonely shadow swinging bak andfourth like the ticking of a grandfather clock that is place upside down on a hot table shaped like a bowl of califlower gardens supporting the children like blooms of an orange wrapping their organs in a sheild of golden locks from a tear strolling down the cheek of a forgotten man.

I think I'm done now.

I'm home..so now what?

Well i've just been hanging out with my best friends. The last of them come home tomorrow-we've already planned for a fun night.

Last night my friend Caitlin came home and we went to my friend Megan's house and got a little tipsy. Well I got a little tipsy, I couldn't have much because I couldn't stay the night, so with my alcohol knowlege I figured out how much I could have and digest in time. Yeah, I know I shouldn't have driven at all blah blah, but I eally didn't have that much. If it makes you feel better I backed my car perfectly into our garage. What crazy drunk could do that? haha anyways.

So earlier that day Brian texted me and we were texting throughout the day. So then I textd him when I was drunk because my friends were calling people and I was jealous. So I had some trouble and texted him "NcDonalds befosf your mom" Not sure what I was going at...
Adam texted me this morning! I was so excited. He's at a dance competition in St. Louis-which is like 3 hours away from me. So we texted a bit and he had to class and in his last text he was like "I'll call u later". i think i'm just getting to excited. He's probably called all of our friends and what not. But I just like thinking that he thought to text me? I miss hanging out with him.

So I was stretching early this morning and I know I havn't stretched in a long time but my back started hurting! I don't know if that's normal?Does your back hurt a little when you go to touch your toes? I'll work on it.

Oh, so class schedule for next year.MWF: pre-calc(gags), chemistry 122, beg. modern dance(we have to take a gym class), Liberal studies-Mind,soul,spirit(DUMB) TTH: pre-calc(T only), Chem lab(TH only).

So I pretty much have TTH off! I'm pretty excited for that.

Just missing it already

I'm home. But I'm not.
I miss college so much already. I got a few texts from Brian being goofy. Then I got another text from my friend Jeremy. I just miss everyone already!

But other than the missing. Good things are going on. Like I get to see my 4 best friends! I can't wait for thanksgiving. That's so far away still. I just want to decorate the house all cool.

I don't feel like blogging. Just I'm too bored to blog.

Ohhhh myyy finals

Well it's not reall finals week yet, but it might as well be. I have a presentation wednesday..I'm doing a puppet show.

What else is going on outside the world of academia?Nothing really.I think I've given up on Adam...which is completely fine because I can see that he still likes his ex-girlfriend and it would jus be a waste of energy and emotions to bother liking him like that anymore.But now there is Brian. I just don't know what to think about him still. Well first of all how do you know what someone is looking for?Relationship wise?Do you just ask? Is it an awkward question? Because if we ever talked or something happens I don't want him to expect me to be like the other girls...because he has hooked up with 2 the past 2 weeks I think. This is what sucks about never having a boyfriend. It's just makes you so anxious when you dont know whats going to happen..I guess that happens regardless but I mean REALLY.

I saw Caren w. wrote to Mr.Bevans(it was on her facebook). It made me realize how much I miss the teachers there. Mr.Schoen,Mr.Bevans,and Mr.Thill are probably who I miss the most. I remembered the other day how november was whn we started making those hand turkeys for Mr.schoen. I thought about making one and mailing it to him with a letter, but then I was like-well do I send it to the school?Or is it just weird to send that?I could just go see him during the break. We should all stop by during break.

Isn't it weird how you adapt to things?Like everything about college is just "the norm" now. Taking showers in a small cubicle with flipflops, walking 15 minutes to class, only having class from 8:30-12:00, having a chemistry lab that's 3 hours long and it just flys by, eating in a cafeteria everyday, living with someone else, forgetting to talk to your parents after a week has flown by, making new friends like it's the first day of school-everyday, always having something to do on the weekends, the freedom to go somewhere anytime you want as long as you have a ride........it just goes oooonnnn.

Have you ever wondered if teachers have just forgoten about you? Like after 4 years of teaching someone they just reset to make more room in their brains. I was thinking about how well I know my two geology profs...and it hasn't even been a year. Imagine 4 years. I love knowing I have 4 years left at this school. I hve 4 more years to get to know the 7 other geology majors that I already hang out with waytoo much. I have 4 more years to party and have fun and be away from home, I have 4 years where half I wont have to work, soooo much time.

I'll quit rambling now.

The Shell is Open

Long day...Long night...but everything seems to be going so fast.

My writing class was cancelled for the day=amazing.
I got to sleep in an extra hour...but I stayed up 4 hours later than my prefered bedtime of 10 o'clock.
Went to geology club...a graduate talked about his trip to China...which was reeeaallyyy cool.
Afterwards the geotrippers went to one of our TA's houses for dinner.
We had tortilla soup and apple crisp.
I came back to school and we all went to Bingo.
I came out of Bingo with colored dots all over my face.
We went and saw Harry Potter 5=AWESOMNESS
And now I'm here...and thinking about h0w I hve to wake up early tomorrow and I have to work on my final project.
It's just going so fast.

College

Is the best time to never sleep.

It's like sleeping becomes whe last thing you need.

Just stay up till four working 0n homework-it's ok.

I keep hearing vibrating noises-like my phone is vibrating..

Simply a day

Chem class 8:30am:
*fall slightly asleep taking notes-I have proofLunch
11:30 am:*soup*Adam comes up and we watch Anchorman till Lab
Lab 1:30pm:
*fumble with chemicals and spill them on my handsLibrary
3:30pm:
*attempt to study chemistry while being distracted by Adam
*recieve multiple beatings on my arms from Adam wrestling with it..or my arm being wrestled with his arm...I can't explain
*jam my shin into the wood under the table because Adam poked me in the side.
Chemistry Test 5:30pm:
*I think I did ok...better than I thought I would?
Dinner 6:30pm:
*just Kate and me
Library 7:30-11:00pm:
*starting geology paper
*hanging out with Kate,Allyse, and Katie
*Adam stops by to say hi around 10:00pm...he wont stop hitting the shift button-sticky keys sticky keys sticky keys.
Dorm 11:00-2:00am:
*finishing paper
*downloading a new ringtone for Adam...I can't decide between 100 years(five for fighting) or Boston(Augustana)..both seem perfect.
*dreading having to register at 6:00am..but it's amazing getting to register than early so I get good classes...all the teachers I want.

I can't wait for lunch tomorrow.

Are you...

and Adam going out?
Alex asked me that today.
I wish.I was with him all day again.lunch at 11:30 am....till 12:30...then study in the library at 3:00 pm...till 5:30 when it's dinner...eat and head back to the westerlin lounge and play on the piano(100 years...Boston...)...go to Brenden's room and study for chem-watch football-play the guitar-and sing retarded songs till 10 pm.tomorrow is chemistry day which means seeing adam at 8:30 to 10:20. Then Adam has to take the test early so I might not see him till like 12:00pm.Then we will probably work on lab web assigns tillour actua chem lab. that will probably last till 3:30 or something. Then I have a chem test at 5:30. That will be like an hour I'm guessing. So after that we might do something?

I dont know...

My amazing weekend

Yes, this weekend hqs simply been the best of all.
First let me apologize for any typos-Ihave fake nails on.

Let's start off with friday night:
*babysat from 5-10
*10-11:"pre-gamed" in my friend across the hall room. They mixed some water with lemonade and UV blue. It tasted like kool-aid. I drank a whole water bottle of it. I didn't feel anything at all.
*went to this transitional living house that's for juniors. It was an unofficial frat. It was my friend Jeremy's birthday-he was gone when we got there at 11:30
*I tried a sip of beer for the firsttime-I almost threw up...I dont think I COULD EVER get used to that
*a girl I know gave me 1/4th of a water bottle filled with vodka and koolaid. It tasted really good, but still I didn't feel anything.
*then Adam poured me a shot of captain morgan rum. I love captain. I took it-and finally felt a little fuzy. Then I had another shot and we went outside.
*12:Hung out outside. Tried to get Adam to teach me how to do a barrel roll. Got him to do a crappy toe touch. Jeremy molested my ear with his tongue-it's on facebook.
*1: things start to calm down at the house. The boys keep playing their beer pong and I just had another shot and decided to stop. I was so afraid i would get sick again
*2: We head back to the dorms. My neighbor Aly and this other boy I know-Brendan.
*3:I finally pass out after indulging in all the cheese I could(It marked the first day that I wasn't a vegan anymore)

Saturday:
*11:woke up and got ready for the day
*12:Adam calls and he comes up to my room to hang out. We talk about last night and howwasted he was. He has an 8 hour gap that he will never get back.
*1:Taylor and I run to walgreens to get halloween costume stuff.
*2:Taylor,Mitch(her friend with a car) and I go to Iowa to go to the mall
*2-6:Taylor gets a tattoo-from LOTR
*we go shopping for a bit
*get a call from Adam wondering if I want to meet him for dinner
*6:30:back at the dorms-have dinner with Adam
*Kennen joins us and mentions a haunted house
*we decided to go to haunted house and then a movie
*8-1am: Go to haunted house
*saw 30 Days of Night-absolutely amazing
*1-3:Adam and Taylor's bf Alex came to our room and watched Along Came Polly
*3:30: Fianlly go to sleep

Today:
*12:00 pm: wake upt o a text message from friend Kate wondering about lunch
*Adam calls right after I text her back and I invite him to lunch
*After lunch Adam and I go to the library
2-5:30:
*Adam buys an acoustic guitar on ebay
*Adam shows me silly videos in the library on youtube
*This kid Nate and me decide that Jesus was crucified on an arch
*Nate and I try to figure out how many situations we can trade the cross with the arch
5:30: Go to dinner with Nate and Adam
6-10:take a shower, watch desperate housewives, call Adam expecting to watch Anchorman
10-10:30:decide to save anchorman for another day, but Adam comes to say hi anyways
11:00 I fall asleep
1:00am: I wake up feeling like shit-nausious?
NOW-thinking about the past weekend, realizing that I love college, thinking about Adam, excitd for halloween, excited for lunch tomorrow-Adam will be there, hoping that Adam-Jer-Brenden-Brian-Nate-and Kate will go hang out after lunch at the picnic table so me and Adam can hang out even more because that's allll we do.

I need to finish my magical polish tea stomach remedy Taylor has made me.

Vegan Diaries: Day 3

Vegan wrap...a suprising treat
salad...I guess I can eat you for 4 more days.
cheddar popcorn...whhyyy must you taunt me from inside your brown lunchbag?
raisins and nuts...still my only friend.
Ok so there' this kid Jake. I think he likes me. I find him reeaalllyy annoying . He is really annoying. He keeps poking me. It's so annoying.

I'm watching the fourth Harry Potter right now. It's at the maze part. I feel like I should be doing chemistry homework. I have a quiz thursday. Adam and I have decided to do our homework,finish our lab report, AND study all tomorrow. I'm not looking foward to it. The chemistry part at least.

I'm babysitting on friday.

Annnndd that's all I have to say.

Umm some blogs I made the past few days-not on this site.

The Vegan Diaries: Day 2
Nothing to spectacular going on here.

Hello, black coffee. I haven't had you in awhile. I don't miss you.

Salad dressing...you need to rethink your ingredients

Soy Milk...I have not returned to you for a reason.

Thank you oatmeal for finally tasting good.

Nuts and raisins...you're my only friend.

Adam for sure still lkes his ex-girlfriend. My friend Jeremy mentioned that he cut his hair and shaved because she didn't like it. Jeremy wasn't too happy. Whatever- at least I can forget about that now. Adam is going to teach me how to do a barrel roll...which I'm really excited about. I just overheard Taylor talk about a big Halloween party. Too bad I have class early. But I have a costume. I don't want to go to a huge party. I don't even feel like going to one. Actually my friend Lindy said she's stocking up on alcohal and I'm invited to come to her room. Maybe I'll just party there and head back haha. That would be a good excuse not to go out. Just get a little tipsy for awhile and then fake sick. haha I'm such a nerd.

I'm tired. Tomorrow is chemistry mania day. I ditched last Thursday.Did I mention that? haha it was the best decision I've ever made. I really need to get a B on the next two test.

I think I shall go to the bathroom..just so you know.

Location:Dorm room
Mood:predatory
Music:Laura Fuentes-Daderto

22nd-Oct-2007 01:12 am - The Vegan Diaries:Day one-Part 2

I'm working on my 5 page paper still...I'm only on 4 pages...it's 1:12 am.So I did my chem homework with Adam tonight. He just got back from home. I guess he had dinner with his old girlfriend who he went out with for 2 years...he just said "we'll see how it works out"... I guess I should forget about him for awhile. Oh well.

I'm not writing about stupid permafrost and methane anymore. Instead I'm doing antibacterial soap and things creating superbugs. So enteraining right?Did I mention I tried soymilk?I can't remember what I last posted. Actually I think I talked about it. Need sleep. Now.

Location:Dorm
Mood:tired
Music:absolutely nothing

21st-Oct-2007 05:28 pm - The Vegan Diaries: Day 1

Soy milk...I just don't know what to think of you...

vegan miso soup...you stink up my room

raisins...you bore me

sunflower seeds...simply too hard to manipulate

honey mustard dressing...since when do you contain anchovies?!

How does anyone actually go years doing this?I feel like a nerd reading the labels. Vegan food cost so much here. I have double stuffed oreos...all oreos are vegan except double stuffed.

Perhaps I should start my 5 source-5 page paper on permafrost warming because of global warming and releasing methane hydrates...

Location:Dorm
Mood:crazy
Music:Ozone

20th-Oct-2007 12:01 am - H- for zombies

Today was scary movie night. People from my geology group(ashley, jake,sam, kennen, emma) and some other kids(lara and Flavio) and I all went up to Swanson-the new dorm- to watch 28 weeks later on a big plasma screen. It was all about zombies. I'm not scared at all.So the past week has been good. Nothing too exciting to update you all about.

I don't know if you remember(Tina and Megan) when you were about to leave you saw two kids-Lindy and Adam. Well they broke up last weekend. Adam and I hve been hanging out a lot. Like we do our chemistry homework and stuff together, he calls to see what I'm doing-usually I'm in the library and he comes and sits, we watched the office in my room thursday, we go get coffee after chemistry, things like that. I think I like him more than a friend, but I feel like I shouldn't. Lindy is a really good friend of mine. I'd fee like a total B* if anything happened. Plus Lindy is friends with all my friends and they'd probably think the same thing and then lots of my friends would hate me. But I on't even know ifhe really likes me in that way. Maybe it's just what I should expect when I have a guy as a friend. We shall see.

haha, I got my halloween costume today. It's from Lovers Lane-HA. It's a ragedy ann costume. I almost don't want to wear it though-it's really short. I'm pretty tired. I hope it wont take me two hours to fall asleep like it did last night!

For the 300 fans

In case you haven't seen..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rZBA0SKmQy8

Rumbles

Umm I babysat my professors daughter last weekend. It was fun. I made $40 in 4 hours. Better than my real job!

I had a dream I went bac to my old dance studio. Those are always sad because I miss everyone so much. Even though I would love to take classes again I couldn't. It's too much money and I'd feel so embarrased walking back in there with no technique left.

My stomach keeps doing weird noises this morning.
not the hungry growls-the "you ate too much" growls

I'm thinking about not eating till Saturday and then attempting to be a vegan for a week.

Why don't you just jump through my Spaghetti O's?

"Have you ever had someone tell you that they want to be you?"

"No."

I stopped that conversation as fast as I could, because I knew if I asked her more about it I would start spouting out every reason why that person is an idiot for saying that.
Yes, Taylor asked me that today. She toldme about how when she goes to her rich grandma's house on christmas eve they get to eat off of swarovski crystal plates and servers serve them. Then she told me how she dosn't like her other grandma because she dosn't have nice things and she thinks she's white trash.
It made me sad.
I just wanted to be like-"so all you care about is money?"
it's true, and I just want to call her out on it. I'm sick of her hippocracy,immaturity, dependance, and pickyness.
I don't care if you're rich, but you don't have to look down on people that don't have as much as you. Don't say something about someone like they're ugly if you don't want people calling you something back. Don't expect guys t go out with you when all you do is cheat on them. Don't get piss drunk when you don't want to get caught by the police.
So how long do you think I can keep that bottled up for?
Oh, and I cant wait for them to turn the heat on in the dorms because apparently she sleeps with the windows on in the winter. If the heat is on-there is no way a window is going to be open.

Today I found pine cones that look like poop.

Wednesday

It's time for a never ending sentence

Forever it is thursday becase the pumpkins wont stop letting their leaves extend into the dark abyss of the surrounding cornfields where the coyotes lurk in the trees looking for any food to fullfill their hungry bellies empty because their past homes have been raided by the evil developers of giant humanoid burrows where they continually rush in and out their sleek shoes making squishy noises on the hot pavement of their driveway briskly passing a struggling catapillar trying to manuever its way across the long river of hard rock slowly swerving back and forth like water blasting through a hose drenching children as they jump around the sprinkler in the summer time.

It's bed time.

Live with your host..

I enjoyed this...so should you.

Oh geology

OI Arizona Tea!

So here's my new hair cut...

I think it makes me look more immature-which is awesome. Do you agree?

My roomate spelled early-eirly. Even I'm not that bad.

Simply cannot wiat any longer

Haha, I typed the secret out intending to reveal it because of my anxiousness-but then I came to my sences..HAHA

I'll never tell

HAH! Look at my non-typo layout now! I know how jealous you are-sitting there with googly eyes yelling "SCRAT" at the monitor. His eyes google back. But he is MINE! My SCRAT. TYPO-FREE SCRAT!...effing blogger layouts..you'd think they'd screen them for typos so us grammar-passive bloggers can type in peace.

Anyways-I've got news.
One bit of news will not be revealed until I get a chat with a person whose name starts with S and ends with H. Then I shall tell the rest of you, because it envolves much explaining and possible depression if taken too far.
Second bit of news will be revealed thursday before dinner if all goes well. I might hint here or there. Lets see who can guess what I'm doing first.

I went to Chicago today. My friends from Geneva who go to Knox(45 minutes away from Augie and where I had my drunken episode) went with me and another friend from hometwn who goes to a community college. Knox friends brought a Knox boy friend. He was cute. He thinks I'm cute. He's short though-shorter than me. Kind of looks like Shila Buff or however you spell that kids name(was in Disturbia, Even Stevens). I think I will inquire further with on of my friends.

I GOT HAIRCUT! I've been told multiple times that I look like Amelie now...
I just tried to take like 50 pictures and then found out the connecting cable is missing-figures.
My dorm room webcam will have to do then. Don't expect anything till monday. OR you could message me on yahoo and see me on webcam!

oh my, almost 11 pm. Guess I'll conside going to bed now even though I wont until like 1.
noight.

Meszing arownd

I felt like entertaining.

Mewzik Bahwxz

So far I've been asked how to spell:periwinklestuffsquirrel- I let her think squerland much more easy words but I can't remember them all.

I've found another singer- Regina Spektor. Download Music Box or Raindrops

I had three tylenols...haha is that how you spell it?...anyways I feel really sleepy-but I dont think Tylenol does that. I had a nap earlier and I think I'm just tired from that.

Taylor is at the library. I'm listening to music. I havn't done any homework. I'll have a lot tomorrow-sort of.After chemistry I think I'm going to getsome coffee or tea and read in the coffee shop and then work on my paper due friday. It's only 1-3 pages.

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Maybe you don't love me-but you'll grow to love me even more-And I well I'm not surprised

It's a silly time to learn to swim when you start to drown.

Things seem to be piling up this week. Last week was so nice.

I get to go home on friday.

It's a silly time to learn to swim on the way down.

I'm getting my hair cut.

Bringing my mineral collection to school.

I need to bring ome more movies.

I dont know-whooo-ooooo.

It's a good thing they don't allow candles here. I'm in the mood to fraternize with some fire.

Drink up.

Forever a Severe Thunderstorm

I have nothing interesting to report. We did have a severe thunderstorm warning and were close to a tornado warning. I wish a tornado would come.

I did find a new song. It's called How Can it Be by Forever Thursday. I really like it. Kind of reminds me of 1234-feist.

I need to find some cute winter shoes-that are flats. Help me.

My nails are painted an obnoxious pink color. I want it off-it's jsut not fall enough.

whateva

Rantrantrantrantrant.

I'm incredibly sad/bummed/angry right now, so just bear with me here-

This day was going fairly well up until 7 o'clock when my roomate decided she wanted to move the whole room around. She threw all of her crap all around the room, just anywhere other than her side really. It's 10:00 pm right now and there is still stuff all over the floor. Oh, but she said she would pick it up right after she had something to eat, yeah right. She ate her soft pretzel and drank her pop an hour ago, still nothing. I'll do it after my homework is done. She hasn't even started her homework.Instead shes been looking for her belt buckle and contact case. She complains about people judging her and badmouthing others when she does it all the time. She always finds something to complain about. She wont shut up about how all she can eat is cereal because she'll thow up real food.Uhm, maybe if she wasn't eating cereal 24/7 and then tried to stuff herface with pasta it wouldn't have been a problem. GUH. Techno is now our official music. The big briht light in our room is left on whilst I try and fall asleep. She's incredibly rude to all males. She "drank" all of the water I brought-but I just saw about 5 bottles still slightly filled roll out of her trash can. And why do I let this happen?!Because I'm too nice to say anything, and I'd rather grit my teeth and expell it all in a stupid online journal than mention anything to her.

What else? Well I planned on not eating anything today. Got back from the library-had some popcorn. Got back from yoga-had a banana. Endured room excavation-some oreos. Ushered roomate to cafeteria-chips. Finally realize how upset I was- mac&cheese. I feel like such an effing cow. Granted I've done a lot worse, but uugghhhh. Tomorrow I wont have anythig except a cookie. Maybe an apple too.

For some reason I was convincing myself that my face looked more sunken or tight, but that will be gone tomorrow. My face will be puffy. My whole body will probably be puffy. Does this sound weird-I almost want someone to notice me getting thin, but I'm not really getting thinner I dont think, BUT I hate it when people mention how I'm not eating things or how I'm thin. I dont want anyone to know about my problem, but it's like sometimes I want certain people to know.

Alright, I'm sure your sick of this. You've probably moved on by now thinking, she's just a stupid teen-she'll get over it- she just wants attention.

"bed time", better get ready so I can lay for an hour trying to sleep. My own rant is annoying me.

Little Red Racist Squirrel

Don't worry, I don't go out pretending I'm little red riding hood.

Avogadro, Boyle, Rutherford...why didn't anyone murder them before they published anything chemistry related. It's such a ridiculous science. Of course it's the basis for all others. I absolutely hate it. It took every ounce of strength or perhaps just sheer laziness not to roll out of my desk and drown myself in the ammonia bottle at the front of the room. Or perhaps swallow the mixture my proffessor was experiementing with and hope that it would quickly eat my innards before my teacher could explain how the concoction was reacting within my body. And then we had our quiz which went fairly well.

My friend Adam and I went to the library and got some coffee at The Brew. I then went off on my own to attempt researching. The geology books are located on the top floor of the library(fifth floor). I took the elevator to avoid climbing 5 flightsof stairs. The doors opened to reveal a nearly deserted floor. I shuffled along the stacks, 'QE...QE... where is it...QE...aha!"

A whole stack of geology books! I suddenly gotthe feeling I would be spending a lot of time here for research or just for fun. I grabbed a book and sat down. It was so quiet, I felt like I had the whole floor to myself-and then some kids came and my moment was crushed.

I packed up my things and grabbed my half-full cup of sugary fantasmicness and headed to the cafeteria to meet this guy Alex. On my way I noticed two squirrels chasing each other. A grey squirrel was chsing a black one. The grey ones are always chasing the black ones. So I've decided the grey squirrels are racist. However, I bet a black squirrel could so take on a grey squirrel.

I reached the cafeteria and looked to find Alex. I'm not sure if he likes me or what. I don't think I like him in that way. See I guess he liked me at first, and then I didn't dance with him on this boat trip so he started liking my roomate instead. Of course my roomate made his life miserable. So now I'm thinking he likes me again, and I just don't like that whole process. Is it just me?

A nap sounds amazin, but something is telling me not to take one. I have no homework-oh wait I do-crap. I just have to read. I have yoga today with the crackly troll. I need to take a shower before GREY'S ANATOMY!What else is on...THE OFFICE! Amazing. How sad is it that T.V shows are the highlight of my days? I don't caaaaaare.

Reluctant Leaves

2:00 am
I've been drugged.

No, I really hadn't, but for some reason I was convincing myself in my dream that I had been. After I realized-no I have not been drugged- I tuned into the soft muffles I could hear through my ear plugs. My roomate, whimpering on (I'm guessing) her phone. I don't know who she was talking to, I really didhn't care to find out. The newly arrived cool air blew over my bed causing me to become very uncomfortable. I pulled my blanket over me and tried to go back to sleep whilst the muffles still persisted. Two hours I layed in my bed trying to get comfortable. I thought I would never get back to sleep.

8:30
My eyes opened to look at the time. Fifteen minutes before I had to be up, might as well just get up now. I struggled to get down my lofted bed and swayed over to my laptop. I turned on the T.V quickly muting it and switching to the Weather Channel. I smiled as I read today's temperatures and turned back to my lap top. I continued with my normal routine of checking facebook, livejournal and both of my e-mails. I felt slightly sick- on the verge of throwing up. My stomach just felt like it wanted to growl so badly but all it could do was squeeze itself until it caused pain.

9:15
I finished putting on makeup and headed for the cafeteria. Coffee sounded like my best option, since my eyes still felt heavy and my body unwilling to move. My cup of deliciousness kept me company as I walked to my first class(second actually, but first was cancelled for an unkown reason). We went to the library and listened to the librarian give a speech about using the library resources, which was actually quite helpful.

11:15
We left the library and I ran a few errands. I decided to take the long way back to the dorms, because I couldn't handle going up 100 stairs(literally). So I took the Slough path. I donned my ipod and flicked to a quiet song- Keep Holding On by Avril. Not exactly quiet. For some reason I thought back to my summer trip to the badlands. I don't understand why I miss it so much. The song finished and Comptine de L'ete came on. My mind went clear and I focused on leaves. They're still green, not even a patch of orange,yellow,brown or red anywhere. I'll let them have one more week.

12:00 pm
Back in my dorm room I start on homework. I research Kimberlites for a possible project. I open a cup of macaroni and cheese. Some raisins, a coffee bar, and a few oreos. Tomorrow I wont eat again. I'll get coffee from The Brew for a treat after chemistry. Then I'll go to the library for two hours or so and research some for my geology project. Around 12 pm I'll go back and read for my english class. Then at 4:15 I'll run off to yoga for and hour and fifteen minutes.

6:03 pm
I'm so tired, but I'm not allowing a nap in fear I wont fall asleep again. Pulled out more hair-fantastic. I think it's from my roomate. She borrowed my nail polish and now my headphones even though she has some of her own but hers are "too big" blah. I guess she cant eat anything other than cereal or candy or else she'll throw up. She's guessing that she's loosing a pound a day. GUH, I'm going to go color.

Drama with some Hot Chocolate

Four weeks and I've still survived college. My roomate is beginning to -erk me a bit. She's constantly dealing with boy drama all brought on by herself. And then shes being haunted by her night of drinking that landed her in the hospital for the night. If I wasn't such a not-forward person, I would so chew her ear off on how she needs to just forget about it all because its not going to change! UGH!

And she wont stop eating cereal-complaining she's too thin-then complaining a moment later about how shes getting fat.

She also uses my shaving gel and face wash. I gave her permission to use both, but I highly doubt she will reinburse me when she gets the chance. It dosn't help that I have to order the face wash to even get near it.

Enough about my roomate. I shall tell you of the past two days.

Monday was my recovery day, since Sunday was hang-over day. I slept 12 hours Sunday night and woke up the nextmorning not feeling fullfilled by my amazing sleep acheivement. Went to writing class then to geology myths and legends to be nearly stabbed by bits of plastic hurtling towards our class by my teacher's experiment. I love that class.
Then I made sugar skulls at Art Club. Well I didn't really make skulls, instead I made a sugar rabbit and pumpkin. I first attempted a squirrel, a white squirrel, to contrast the black ones we have here. He just didn't turn out. So I made Rudolpho the Rabbit and Pumpkin the Pumpkin. I know- so original.

I got the fuzzies again during chem today. I think I was trying to figure out my dream last night and then they came. Perhaps that's what brings them- good dreams? Don't ask what my dream was. I just know I wa in my dorm room talking to friends for less than a minute and then I think I was in a house or the geoscience building. I also attempted a nap, but my brain waves weren't cooperating i guess because i never achieved one. I think I effed up my chem lab again after thinking I was doing so well. We had to heat this mixture until the water(which was not in liquid form) evaporated. I waited until the mixture turned from blue to white and took it off the burner. I guess I was s'posed to wait lik 20 minutes. I probably burned it for 10 or 15. Oh well.

Today I have successfully not had anything to eat. I want to see if that brings the fuzzies. Maybe I could pull of fasting for a few days. I did it once but found myself ridiculously cranky the third day, so I might do my friends a favor and only fast for two...but I heard the third day is most important. Whatever, I may not do it at all.
My hairpulling is becoming absolutely ridiculous. I'm in desperate need of a new hair cut. That helped LOADS the last time. I don't even feel stressed out! I could go to the schools psych. but Ireally don't feel like it. Especially when I don't know what even may be causing it.

I love hot chocolate. The hot chocolate here is probably the best I've had. Even the german hot chocolate I had at the KrisKrindle Market in Chicago dosn't compare. Then I have hot chocolate packets in our room that I will sometimes have at night. They taste so watery now :/

This is quite a long post...I think I'll stop now.

hop-skip-whatever

So I went to my friends' college that's about an hour away from mine.

We went to a frat party.

We played this game called "flippy cup"

We drank a mixture of beer,vodka, and squirt
they called it hop-skip and something but I forgot

I drank so much-better explore my limits a bit more.

Anyways, we went back to the dorms and I started throwing up

For an hour

And then I woke up the next morning

With a massive headache

unable to think about anything to do with the previous night or else I would hae to puke somemore

but don't worry, I threw up again before we left for lunch

We went to this creperie. I got a cup of smoked cheddar mashed potatoes
they were so good. I wish I could have enjoyed them without a massive hangover

Now I feel like I have a second stomach filled with all the alcohol I had last night. And it just keeps flopping around in there and hurts. I just want it to go away.

I dont think I'll be drinking for awhile...what do you think?

Prickles up my spine

Tonight I got a massage-back massage- by this kid named Alex. It was amazing. He says I have a lot of tension in my shoulders. I agreed.

I took a nap today for the first time in I dont know how long. Naps are nice because I always have dreams and usually remember them. TGoo bad the dream today was a waste. I just kept dreaming about the schools "dance squad" and how I didn't understand anything they were telling me. The whole time I was just thinking 'but I dont want to dance!'. T'was weird. I fell asleep probably around 4 woke up at 5:30 feeling more tired than before. I know.. I know, naps are only s'posed to last for like 20 minutes. But the nap seduced me!I just wanted to stay all comfy on my bed of pillows that I layed on the floor with my blanket.

I've been fining hair clumps around my desk. At first I thought they were taylors and my hair just accumulating, but I've been finding a lot of them, and never over by her desk. She rarely comes over by my desk. So lets say they're all from me. i've been pulling my hair, but I always thrown it out. So I dont know how all these extras are getting there?!And we have no vaccum which makes all the hair clumps even more disqusting.

Tomorrow I start yoga! I'm so excited. I can't wait to stretch.

just so you know.

Every key is the delete button

I had a huge blog typed out and accidently deleted it. I'm not redoing it.

Back to School

It's weird. I'm glad I'm back. I can't wait to wake up tomorrow morning, put on my new clothes(I went shopping whilst at home), push play on my ipod and walk to class. I love walking to class. The campus is so pretty and my music makes me want to smile.

I'm doing homework now, since I refused to do it when I was home. So I should get back to that..

Hide and Seek

After eating a ton today the fuzzies have been coming and going. They're so mean. Why can't they just stay?But I'd rather be hungry and have them than be full. Then it's more like a reward.

I got a new phone, a razor. I know-EVERYONE has them. My mom got me a plan so i could talk to her for free at school. The only cool phones I could pick were a razor and krazor. Krazors get all smudgie so I got a silver razr and put rhinestones on it. Such a girlie girl....

I got two colouring boos at the store today. I can't wait to show taylor.

Feels like Home to Me

I'm hooommeee!

It feels like I never left.

My stomach is bubbling around, because I've eaten everything in sight.

For some reason I just don't care. It only gives me a better excuse to myself not to eat at school.

I'm really tempted to take pictures to track any progress. I regret not doing it the last time.

But who wants to take pictures of themselves when they hate how they look?

Enough of the Enter button. I feel like pajamas.

Tell me that you love me more

My roomate asked me to start working out with her. I think she's implying something. She's so much thinner than I am. Everyone here is thin.

I still miss my fuzzies.

I'm watching a ballet. Sleeping beauty I think. I forgot how long it takes for each scene. I just want to scream at the television-YES, I GET IT! The witch has cast a spell and your baby is screwed.

Those teenage hopes
who have tears in their eyes
Too scared to own up to one little lie

Excuse me too busy you're writing a tragedy

My fuzzies have left me. I miss them already :/

I tried to revive them by getting some coffee at the coffee shop on our campus.The coffee was amazing-better than starbucks if you can believe it. However, my fuzzies still wouldn't come back.

I tried listening to 1234 and taking awalk to the library to print my paper. They still didn't come.

I should be doing my homework now. It's going to take me forever.

I need my hair cut. It looks even more stringy as it gets longer. I like knowing that it's still thin, but I really like having longer hair. I don't pull it out as much anymore, but I have been pulling it a little since I got to college. I think it's stress related here.

I need to go proofread a paper now. Wish some fuzzies for me.

Fuzzy

I've had an amazing day today and I can't really tell you why...
because I don't even know why it's amazing!
The whole day I've had this warm,fuzzy feeling inside.I don't know why I have it, but I looovveee it. I was taking the Slough-or long scenic route-back to my dorm and I had my Ipod on playing 1234. It was just the best feeling ever. I just feeling hugging someone for an hour or taking a nap.

At the end of the day...

There is always a reward for running on empty. Literally.

I watched Memoirs of a Geisha today-which is AMAZING! This was the first time I had seen it. The main girl is SO pretty! I remember how I used to want to be a geisha. I believe that was after Mulan. But then I realized I couldn't be because I wasn't Asian. And I watched this documentary about Geishas and it looked boring.

I really want to go to bed. I just love sleeping. I love having dreams and waking up all comfy in my sheets. It's also like an even better alone time. There's no noises or chance to go do something else. I can just think about whatever I want.

Before I retire for the evening I would like to say that the area between my neck and shoulders is KILLING me, figuratively of course. I just want a massage :( A nice stone massage would be nice. With all the aromatherapy oils. uuugghhh that sounds so good..

I'm off to dream

The empirical formula of coffee

Chemistry class ended about an hour ago. Two hours of staring at a slideshow just knocks me out. So I grabbed some coffee for lunch and hopefully it will wake me up for my lab at 1:30. Of course now I have the other side affect of coffee, which if you don't know is having to relieve yourself excessivly.Haha, such a nice way to put it.

I've got an hour now to enjoy myself-oh I love my alone time. That's thebest thing about college. Being alone with everything you need to keep you even the slightest entertained. AND I can go get coffee whenever I want right down stairs. The only thing I could ask for is a vaccum.

My roomate wants to take picures of us in or room and stuff, so be on the lookout for pictures!Most likely on facebook...

Carbs

Ha guess what, I suck
Not eating anything tomorrow, no matter what.
That's all i have to say.

Fall is here

This morning I had decided that I wasn't going to eat anything today, however...

I shuffled my feet down the 3 billion steps coming from the Geoscience building towards the College Center Cafeteria. My body leads me to the entrance of the cafeteria and my eyes instantly attatch themselves to 5 brighly wrapped caramel apples. Before I can even reason with myself about what was already planned for lunch, my hand whips the apple off its perch, and my body once again leads me to the checkout. I turn the apple over a few times in my hand to read that it's 140 calories. I guess that's not too bad. There's always tomorrow.

Update: I had some popcorn that was 120...

Night Wishes

Before I head to class today, I figured would share every thought in my head from last night. I don't know why, but now I don't really want to share it, but last night I REALLY wanted to. So we'll see how this goes.

Last night was the ordinary night.
No parties, staying out late, staying up late.
I got into my bed round 10:30.
But as my head began to sink deeper in to my feather-filled pillow, my thoughts became focused on one thing.
Ok, 2 cups of macaroni and cheese were 280 calories. Then I had a handful of popcorn, which I have no clue for how many calories that has. I had some hot chocolate before bed, but thats 80. So I know I had at least 360 give about 100-200.
Then I thought back to my junior year around christmas time. 105 lbs. At the time I didn't feel that thin.
Sometimes I just feel like that 105 lb girl stuck in this shell of fat arund me.
Then my mind goes to the next day food selection. I decided on nothing.
This morning I woke up feeling like crap. It's just not going fast enough.

Livejournal

So I got a livejournal because my friends foced me too...sort of.
My username thing is gonedancing3889 in case you have one.

OMG COLLEGE!

So I'm in my dorm right now, waiting for the day's activities to start in like 2 hours.

Everything has been going good so far, except the internet reliability. One minute everything is woking fine and then next...

We went on a boat last night-all 700 of us! We danced for awhile and then went up to the deck. By we I mean my roomate or friends from my geology trip. Afterwards I went with some guys from the trip back to their dorm to play guitar hero! But only 25 minutes because we had to be out by 12!

I should really go wake me roomate up...she had a later night than I did!

Back from my trip!

http://s8.photobucket.com/albums/a46/electicuty/GEOLOGY/

Here are all my pictures!

Just some randomness for my minions

Isn't my ferret cute!? And m kitty Oliver of course.

So today I finished another chapter in my geology book. I can't believe I only hve 6 days left! I'm kind of nervous. I know i'm going to miss everyone and my animals. I need to go pick up paint from my mom, but I really don't feel like it.I need to wash my hair...

It's been a while

I didn't realize how long ago I last posted. I'm not even sure what to write now!
I'm finishing up my last week of work, next wednesday is my last day. Then I'll go off to the Rocky MTNS.
When I get back I want to go shopping for school clothes.I know, like I didn't have all summer to do that. My uncle wants to go out for breakfast the day before I leave. I even broke into going to this chocolate lounge with my mom before I go.
The thing I'm worrying about a lot is my ferret. I want to give her to someone that will watch her while I'm in sch0ol,but I dont want her thinking that I'm giving her up. Trust me-they know. One of my managers has two ferrets and two daughters that play with them a lot. I would really like her to stay with them. I guess I would have her in the summer then...since it might be annoying switching her back and fourth. I dont know. I know my mom wont let her out and play with her enough. I'd like Emmy to be happy :/

I dont know what else to say....

Glass menagerie remix

This morning, with only 3 hours of sleep, I drove to work for a 5 hour shift. I am still sick. I still sound like a twelve year old boy. When a customer was leaving I "shouted" "have a nice day!" It was more of a shriek with about 3 cracks in it. The guy just turned around and looked at me like I was crazy. Ahhh, back to work.

Afterwards me and my mom saw hairspray, which I really liked. The only thing that I wasn't too keen on was John Trovolta cross-dressing.

When I got home I stepped on a chuck of glass that was lying on the door mat after my brother broke a light bulb.

I'm having such a great week...

Home from work again!

Apparently I was meant to be miserable this week. Let me first say that I am RARELY sick. Or at least not sick enough to stay home from any type of function. Like I've recently posted...monday I had flu-ish syptoms, tuesday was better, now wednesday......I THOUGHT I was better. No fever, no chills, no fatigue, just a little sore throat and a cough. Well about an hour before I went to work I quick washed my hair and I think I got some shampoo in it. My eye started getting red, but thats nothing out of the ordingary when you get shampoo in it. 30 minutes later it starts getting a discharge in it! And I'm like AHHHH! So I went to work of course and afterwards i went to the ER in fear that I may wake up the next day with no vision. An hour and a half later I learn that I have pink eye and that I've just about gotten over strep. Now, no pharmacy is open so I had to wait till this morning to go and get my meds. I got like 3 hours of sleep. I called into work not to long ago-I guess one person that was supposed to show up this morning didn't and it's a fish day so it's going to be crazy, and since I wont be there it will be REALLY bad. Oh well, unless they want me in there coughing on everything and spreading pink eye. I have to go in tomorrow morning, but I think I'll be ok. The doctor said 24 hours on meds and then I wont be contagious. I also got some meds for my cough and everything so hopefully that will be better too! Time for me to find something else to do!

Going back to Work

The title of this post makes it sound as if I missed a week of work or something. But anyway, I am indeed going to work today. Finally, my flu is i think at least half way over. I no longer have a fever as of this morning. Now I just have a lovely dry cough, sore throat, stuffy nose, and slightly stuffy head. The most amazing thing that happened though was last night I coughed up this nasty thing. I've never seen anything like it before! But to spare your tummy I wont talk about it anymore. I just wanted to let you know I discovered something. I'm not worried about work today. Monday I was because I knew that if I had to go i would be a nut ball laying on the dirty floor. Tonight I think I'll be happy with people knowing me as the stuffed up employee.

Last night I watched Kathy Griffin:My life on the D-list. That's all I did yesterday-watched TV. She went to London which I thought was great cos I want to go. It was funny to see how the humor is different in another country. They said she couldn't say certain words either-like batty boy, bumboo?, uuhh blad clat? I dunno they were weird ones. Tonight once i'm home from work I'm looking forward to watching Top Chef and So You Think You Can Dance. I think those are the only shows I watch. I -like many teenagers-remember what day it is by what's on TV. I'm practically lost friday thru monday because nothing is on. Nothing good at least. That's one reason why I hate summer-all the TV reruns are on-excpet Kath Griffin and So You Think You Can Dance and Top Chef. All the other good ones are on during the school year. That's enough about TV

Now that I can read I started back on my college coursework for august. I'm on chapter 5..sorta...out of 13 :/ I think I need to start making deadlines or something because it's just ridiculous.

i must still have the chills or something because I suddenly feel myself going from cold to fairly hot..so i'm leaving.

Fever Sick

For the first time in what seems like years I actually have a fever! Normally if i get sick my temp goes down, but today I finally accomplished having a 103.1 high fever. I've taken medicine now, so it's only at 101 something. I had to work today but i called in sick because I'm very sure I'm not fit to drive or stand up for more than 10 minutes. Accompaning(i know that's not spelled right) my fever is a sore throat, dry cough, slight headache in the back of zee head and the chills. After researching and asking information from a protected source I believe I have the flu. I believe I contracted it from the cruise ship I was on. Sounds about right yes?I think so too. Now excuse me whilst i go sleep again.

Cruise details

My dad sent me a few pictures from the cruise so I guess I'll tell all now.

The first photo is me at the southernmost point in the US. I know, how exciting!

The second one next to it is just me on the boat being cool.

The third is all four of us before we got on the boat. Whoopee

The fourth is a lovely sunset...not sure where we were though.

And the fifth is us on the segways looking uber-stylish.

that's it for now

STUART UPDATE!

OMG! I went to work today and I went to see Stuart and Sasquatch, well now there's only stuart! Poor Sasquatch died :( BUT Stuart is pretty much a frog now. He looks like this picture only less of a tail. it's just a nubbit now! My baby is just getting so big.

I have to count all the fish in our system tomrrow so I think everyone should think about me and feel bad for me around the hours of 8-4:30. Please and thank you.

I'm bbbaaaaccccckkk!

I'm back from my week long vacation to Florida/Mexico! I'm not going to talk about it this post though, because I want to explain it all with pictures-so you have to wait!

I will let you in on one thing that happened...my dad proposed to his girlfriend. I'm really not sure what to think of it. Like I've been saying...I don't think we've been programmed to comprehend our parents say they're engaged. I mean normally that's already been done before birth so there isn't any dealing with it. I think I'm excited to know that my dad is happy but to be honest it feels just the same as before. I'm not going to be calling her mom or anything, but I guess the thought of her being my step-mom sort of erks me. But I wont even see her often so what does it matter!?Let's just say I'm indifferent to the situation at the moment.

What else...I REALLY want to see the movie Hairspray. Better yet, have a dance to one of the songs. Also I want to start taking yoga. I found out on the cruise that yoga is all of the whacky positions I put myself into every day. Only you have to lay down and close your eyes a lot which is just silly. I took a pilates class to, but I found it much more fun to see the look on the other peoples faces when I wound get all bendy. You know what I hate though-LUNGES! I want to shoot people whilst doing them. My legs get all shaky and my hip starts cramping up. I basically just want to die.

I have to get ready for work now. I think I'm going to tell them today that I can only work for another 3 weeks or so. So bye!

OH! And screw strawberries as a good fruit...blueberries with splenda on top is so much more nummy

Floating into the dark abyss

I am leaving tomorrow for vacation!Here's just a little info!

Obviously we are leaving in Miami, stopping in key west, going to cozumel, and then returning back to port. I wont be back till Friday the 13th...yes friday the 13th.

You can see a picture of the lovely room me and my brother will be sharing. It even has a balcony and FREE room service. Jealous? Well dont worry, I will be taking loads of pictures so you can see if it actually looked theat good, because i bet it dosn't.

There is a few pics on Cozumel, and a picture of what we will be doing there!Segway!YAY! I love those things.

That's all i have to say for now. I will miss everyone and my internet access :/

Hey there Delilah

I've decided a name for my duck. PaePae. I know, wtf? Lemme tell you how I came up with it...
So on my way home from work today I saw a license plate that said PXP 1757 well i dunno of those are the right numbers but the PXP reminded me of PixelPinup. So then i thought, what if it was PP?Then I realized that would sound weird if you said it aloud. So I thougt of aglae and how people pronounce it -ie instead of -ae. Then I just combined my two thoughts into PaePae. So it still sounds like you're saying peepee kind of...only in some ridiculous accent.

I'm also happy because some of the pictures from a photoshoot my friend and I did were put online in a zine. Go to www.platformsmagazine.com if you'd like to see! Scroll down to photography and click "Day in the Park" by Megan Buckley. These are from a month ago.

AND FINALLY, today was the last day of my working marathon. Now i can sleep in tomorrow morning! I have to start getting things ready for friday!I can't wait!

<3

Music Video Schmideo

I'm pretty bummed now, because I spent loads of hours last night(ok like 1) making a music video. It turned out pretty decent, but I can't figure out how to upload the thing! GRRR! I'm disappointed in technology.

On that note, I moved Stuart and Sasquatch to a nice big bowl today. They look very happy now.

I also finally picked out MY duck from our newly hatched babies. It's the smallest one of course and I painted its toenails a sheer pink :P I havn't named it yet, but I'm thinking I want to go with a literary reference like Gatsby or Mr. Proctor. I don't know if it's a boy or girl though, so I should probably pick a gender neutral name, but those are never fun...

Tomorrow I have to work from 7-3:30. I'm not excited. It will be my fourth day in a row working eight hours. I really don't know how adults do it! My joints are killliinnggg me! And I'm BORED out of my mind! I just can't wait to go on vacation. I feel like I've been waiting forever to go. I feel bad that my mom isn't coming. I hate going on vacations without her. But she goes on vacations with Dave and dosn't even take us with so I guess I shouldn't worry too much about her feelings.

I have nothing left to say

Stuart the Tadpole

OK, at my work today we got a shipment of feeder fish and in the bags were two tadpoles! These weren't just any tadpoles-they had legs! SO my coworker Amber and I named them Sasquatch and Stuart. Mine's name is Stuart. They are so cute ^_^

Another thing- I have a headache.

Another thing, here's a funny picture.

OH and I'm going to make a music video tonight to the song " The Way I Are". Hopefully I'll figure out how to upload it.

Coffee Time

mmmmmmmmm!

This morning I went for like the first time in weeks and had some coffeeeeee! So now I'm in this caffiene euphoria and I just want to go do something! I want to dress up and look cute and go have fun with friends! I want to go see a movie or just walk around somewhere! I just want to get out of this house! I really want to go for a bike ride tonight. I really don't have much to blog about since I havent been doing anything...but i only have a week left till i go on my trip! My friend and i are going to go and get our nails done before. I'm just excciiitteeeddd. AND the fourth is coming up...but i dont have any plans or fireworks...and I'll probably be working anyway. That would be a great day to work. Too many people would be busy partying to think about their pets. I'm bored now, so bye.

The perfect cure

ok..so I'm not feeling that bad anymore, because my mom took me shoooppiinnggg! Haha, that's a great way to punish me :P Anyway...I really needed summer clothes and I found some that I actually like for once. I like them sooo much that I made my own little fashion picture show just for you to see. Yes, i know I'm vain :/

I also have some pretty summer dresses!But I didn't take pictures in those because they are dirty and also because my camera was running out of battery...did run out of battery. Oh, and sorry for the poor quality. You can see a glimpse of my bedroom though!THE END

Feeling pretty crummy right now :/

So, I finally gave into the high school peer pressure that eveyone has been talking about.

I let my friends have a drink at my house. Me included of course. I didn't even give them that much, and I thought within an hour they would be fine. Even if they weren't, I still made sure everyone would be safe. I had one of them spend the night, and the other was picked up by a SOBER friend.This has to be the most stupid thing I've ever done...really the only stupid thing I've done. Of course I get caught the first time.

Anyway, I'd like to stop thinking about it.

Registration extravaganza

Sooooo remember how I was saying that I really didn't want to go register. Well, it wasn' t that bad. Not that i thought it would be. I met some pretty cool people actually. To keep a long story short, I met two guys that are going on my geology field trip this summer. They were both really nice and I'm sure I'm going to have sooo much fun. I also got a class with one of the professors that I'm going on the trip with. Now I'm really tired, because I had to wake up at 5 am to get to augie and then I got back home around 6 pm. crazy crazy!

Daddy's day

Yesterday my dad had us(my borhter and I) go to his church. I'm not really a religious person, but this church isn't so bad. It's pretty casual and for all types of religions. He took his jaguar car to the car show they had out in front of the church. He likes being looked at. Then we went inside,had some coffee, went to the service, ate dinner, and left. It was fairly uneventful, however, my dad's car did start smoking. His air conditioning thing was beginning to melt i guess. Oh well, luckily it was cooler outside than earlier that day!
Today I went to work for 8 1/2 hours and ran on 4 hours of sleep. I was quite silly all day. Afterwards I went to my dad's house (grandma's actually) to have dinner with him. When I got to his house I gave him his present for dad day. My brother and I got him an oar, haha. He has an old fashioned hot tub and he burns wood to heat it. He has to stir it up with an oar to get it warm uniformly. I also got him some beef jerky, even though i dont approve. After that I took a cat nap for probably 30 minutes. Then it was supper time. I spilt my pop all over and then I went to open the fridge and a pie flew out at me and spilled all over. It was key lime pie too, which is my dad's favorite :/
Now I'm back home watching The Sixth Sense. I shouldn't be though, because I'm terrible with scary movies. When I was younger I watched a movie called Urban Legends. I was terrified for a year afterwards! Really I was! It would take too long to explain all of the this that would freak me out.
My friend wrote on my facebook that our pictures are going to be in two more "magazines". It's pretty cool to think other people will be seeing the photos. She told me she wants to take some pictures of me dancing. I found my old pointe shoes, so hopefully I can use those. They make everything look so cool.
Tomorrow I want to go summer clothes shopping. For once, I ACTUALLY really need new clothes. i have no shorts, shirts, or sandals to wear! It's awful :(and it's been sooo hot!
I really don't feel like blogging anymore. Well, for tonight I mean. I have an exciting story, but i don't feel like typing any more. So bye.

Insomnia is not my middle name

Ok, so it's 12:20 am. I shouldn't call it insomnia. I just don't want to go to bed right now. I feel like there's something I need to do or look-up online. I just keep surfing all the web pages trying to find a reason for me to stay up later.
I have so much to do tomorrow! Well not really...I need to go buy my dad an oar for Father's Day. I just want to go clothes shopping for summer. All that is in my closet is llong sleeved shirts and a few dresses. All of my short sleeved shirts are dance team/work-out ones. I have no shorts, not that I want to wear them, but it's just so hot! I'm too unladylike to wear skirts and dresses all the time! I need to cash my paycheck. I need to write my future professor an e-mail saying that I'm a vegetarian. I need to go buy a God book, because I have to go to church tomorrow and I would love to have more evidence as to why there MAY not be a deity. I'm not saying that I don't believe in a god. I just like to keep an open mind. Hmm what else? I need to go buy some body firming stuff at the store. That cruise is just coming too quickly...another reason why I need new clothes.
Today I made a parfait. Actually YESTERDAY I did. It was very good. When I say parfait i mean yogurt,granola, and berries...not some DairyQueen ice cream concoction. I would like one right now. I'm not going to eat until 11:00 today; am that is. I need to drink more water too. I've been going nuts with diet rootbeer lately. Ha, I have a little story...
So, In July I'm going on a cruise with my dad,brother,and my dad's girlfriend. However, before the cruise we're staying at my uncle's house in West Palm Beach, FL. My aunt is a nurse. One of those surgery ones. So, she's going to be watching me all 3 days I'm there. She dosn't like my "diet". Not diet diet, just what I eat in general. I'm a vegetarian as stated in the earlier paragraph, and I don;t take vitamins. I have vitamins, I just forget to take them >.> not on purpose! She'll nag on me about that for sure. Then she always wacthes me like a hawk when I'm eating. I swear, if I go to the bathroom afterwards she's there listening when i close the door. The bad thing is that she really does scare me. I can't really explain it. I feel like I can't act like my normal goofy self around her. If I don't eat enough she finds some way of stabbing me in the side with it...ex:"Amanda, have some more vegetables." "No, I've got plenty" "Not enough to live". SEE, what would you do in that situation. I just froze and watched her dump them on my plate. I dunno, I'm done talking about her.
12:40...hmm...I think I'll surf my sites one more time and then go to bed. Enjoy your Saturday everyone, because I don't think I will be enjoying mine :/

Summer Boredom

I really wanted to wait for something cool to happen so that my first post would be actually interesting. Well, nothing has happened this whole summer. Of course summer really started like two weeks ago, so I shouldn't panic too much. Next week I have to go to Augustana College for the day to register. I'm kind of looking forward to that. The college is two hours away from my house, and I have to be there by 8 am. So i will be waking up around 5 am to get ready :/ I'm not in the mood to go and make new friends.
Later that week I'm helping my dad at this Jaguar show he's going to. He has a Jaguar car obviously, but he also started making pottery, so i get to help him sell it. I only go with because i love going to hotels, and the one we are staying at is reeeaalllyyy nice. The best part is that i only have to work for two days next week!
Speaking of work... I'm kind of tired working at Petsmart. I love everyone i work with, but I just do the same task over and over! I want something new! I'm also tired of the bratty children that come in. if i quit, there is no way I will find another job. I'm pretty much leaving for college in august, so why bother? My mom would spaz out if i didnt have a job. I just keep telling myself two months..two months and I'm done.
One of my friends is really into photography, and she has been taking pictures of me and a couple of my other friends. She submitted the photos to some online british magazine, which is pretty cool me thinks. You can see our latest shoot here-> http://s35.photobucket.com/albums/d193/theramones1967/11June2007/
and our park shoot here ->http://s35.photobucket.com/albums/d193/theramones1967/11June2007/
I'm the one with the black hair, black and white dress or green and white dress.
I don't think i have anything else to say really. So...bye