4 Times

4 times I've purged today.

And the fourth time I found myself staring into the white porcelain abyss wondering if my eyes would pop out, my head explode, or just my entire stomach to come shooting up my esophagus along with my noodles and avocado. I hate it. But I'm terrified to not do it.

My dad sent my brother and I a package from his honeymoon. It had a bottle of maple syrup, dried cherries, salt water taffy, 6 types of fudge, 2 bags of chocolate covered peanuts and...a package of Michigan rocks and minerals. He also sent me the link to the wedding pictures, which I'm included in. I was going to post a link but I'm not happy about how I look so I'm not going to.